And I'm just crazy
Goin insanely
Ruckus come tame me
Uncontrollable shame
Meets intolerable aims
Of missing and wishing
But never you came
You never came

Black Eye Vision

When the devil meets my eyes and says, "I'm just playin"
My challenger persona be like, "Well I'm just waitin"
Then I realize that its the fact that I'm even talking back
I whisper in my mind and he says, "Definitely heard that"
I keep nothing to chance
No safety net to lean on
He keeps me in his sights at night
I'm the one he creeps on
I slip onto a silent road
Obvious to feed on
I'm knee deep in my rewards
But somehow drown in my remorse
I'm unofficially at times, throwing in the towel
I let myself at times, allow sorrow to be found
Everythings a blur now, shots all around
Oh wait, I'm here alone, and just finished up 6 rounds
Been a bitter evening
Bite at night chills me
Probably because I walk alone
House to house unruly
Next time I'll be beaten
Bruised heavy guilty
And who am I to think that I am even worthy
Too good, can turn too bad
Wants of what I can never have
I call this my "Black eye vision"
Unsightly path not given
I take it as I figure in
What part of life is missin'
Cuz I'm just in this fishbowl
While much rather would be fishin'

ANOTHER Unreleased Kid Cudi 2011

Unreleased Kid Cudi 2011

When the fast lane dead ends and runs out of road,
When the high that you had brings you down below.

My Anthem

Found these on my Myspace..lol

Sep 22, 2007

Indescribable

Current mood:grateful

Indescribable. You never know whats next. Life is full of opportunities taken and opportunities missed. Chances blown, and thoughts turning into actions. Live your life in truth, live your life in honor, live your life in confidence. Dont let the people in your life who truly care about you, slip away. But set aside the unnecessary hollow people who block your vision of staying true. Decide on the way you want to live and live it. Keep your enemies few. Keep your support great. And keep your loved ones as close to you as possible & hold on to them for however long you can. Without communication you lose. Game over. If a person hears and understands what you are saying, everything is so much easier to deal with. Remember, to smile often. Dont "not be" yourself because it shows. When you say "I Love You", mean it. Dont let your head get too big, but dont let it get too small. There is a balance to confidence. Find it. You may never be the smartest, fastest, biggest, tallest, best looking, most conditioned, person. But rise above your difficulties. Meet your goals and expectations you set for yourself. And never say never. Go for the gold. Go big or go home. Show up and shape up. Cuz the time is now. Be ready for what ever comes your way. Face all adversity with 100% of your heart. And know that everyday is another opportunity to make a difference or to do something great.

-Michael Lopez-





Jan 18, 2008

Thank You.

Current mood:thankful

When I take a step back and look at my life and who is in it, I am so grateful and thankful. It takes real love and compassion for the people around you, and real bonds and connections, to make you realize how much those people mean to you. I've been blessed to be surrounded with awesome friends, and of course my family. Even though most of my family that I am close with, I cannot see everyday, I am reminded each time I go to visit what the love of an aunt, cousin, or grandpa means to me. I usually take for granted the small things that the people in my life do for me, and I know I shouldn't. Because everyday that I get a smile, compliment, encouragement, or embrace, it helps me get through day to day. Knowing the love of people and how they express it to you can often be complicated, but I know that I have surrounded myself with such a great base of people to share that with. I have no time for holding grudges anymore; I'm getting too old for that. Life is too short to cut people out, or dislike people unless you have a good reason. Once again I am thankful and appreciative for the people in my life today. Family, friends, and everyone else who knows me; thank you for being yourself around me, and for knowing and hopefully appreciating who I am as a person, and what I have to offer.

If you just read this, that was for you.

 

No Looking Down

Its where I'm never found, I'm never found
Is where I'm headed now, I'm headed down
Its where I'm never found, I'm never found
Is where I'm headed now, I'm headed down


I look up and see my whole life story
Woke up to breathe, good day starts for me
Hold up, I'm weak, absence of glory
Mighty to seek though, quietly reach out
Too modest to be found
Reliance, it peaks now, seeps down
There's a hold on my position to win
Hurricane plays on my decision to spin
Broken glass sees that I'm evicted again
Specifically dim
With wild flames burning in


Its where I'm never found, I'm never found
Is where I'm heading now, I'm heading down
Its where I'm never found, I'm never found
Is where I'm heading now, I'm heading down


Quarter to 2, my day starts slowly
Out of this bed means more misery
Quota today; give out smiles and waves
And take what I can, let whats good come my way
How they will know nothing about my situation
I hide it so well, my own complications
Virus is felt though
How can I withhold
My body gets so cold
Struggles, those struggles


Its where I'm never found, I'm never found
My soul keeps reaching out, its reaching out
Its where I'm never found, I'm never found
But my soul, it reaches out, it needs an out


Week and a day since times got harder
Malice and rage, my own self starter
My friends come in waves
Opportunity saves
How can you be happy when subsequently dazed
I wait so long for you my friends
I have no one, and I have few cents
My days are long
My will is gone
Somehow my let down has the fight to be strong


Its where I'm never found, I'm never found
My heart needs something now, just something now
Its where I'm never found, I'm never found
My heart hears something sound, that something sounds


Listen to it once, hear it through me twice
One day I wake up and take all my advice
I redirect my life
I stand there satisfied
Because of my reality, greatness comes through tragedy
My aches heal so erratically
I come to realize as all will
That amounts of life's retries are standing still
What matters is; let matters spill
Let thoughts breathe, let your mind speak
Let lost things, find peace
Let wrong days, right your weeks
Be conqueror of all you are
See honest people, shoot for the stars
Spend the quality of time and love
Set quality in your life when times are rough
Camp-out wherever certainty reigns
Climb all your mountains, ride all the waves
Smile from your soul, bring that confidence that shows
Make your mind free of worry, there you are, there's your glow
Fortified lifetime of truth
When will the encouragement end
No where in my book


My journey is ending now, its ending now
Yes I'm finally found, I'm finally found
My trials will be here then, they'll be here now
But hey, I'm looking up, no looking down
No looking down...





"Thank you to all the people that are/were struggling and have had the courage to let me in. These are all truly your words you have said to me redirected in this piece. For all of you that can relate to this in any way, I may not have been anywhere near your defeats but I made this piece as vivid as I could from all the information I have gathered from others experiences along with some of my own. I have seen too many people in my life who have it so hard, that's why I am always catering to going to the next level with my writings. From some type of destruction to encouragement, there is always someone who needs motivation. Even from low points in life I can see full recovery in a person willing to change and break free. For all who are in that place, this one is for you. Thanks again."

CUD LIFE TOUR SF

I guess if I was simple in the mind, everything would fine. Maybe if I was a jerk to girls, instead of being nice and speaking kind words, then maybe it would be okay to say then, I wasn't a good guy to begin with.

They got me thinking I aint human, like I came here from above. Feelin' like a bird sittin' high.

-Kid Cudi

Florence Snippet

Good luck my best friend. I wish you all the best. Nothing less.

Happy 21st Birthday to Me!

Sunk like a ship after awhile
Nothing less than a good time
Loose ends, great friends, and by the end of the night feeling finee
6/14/2011

Zoned Liquid

And not to say that this feeling isnt satisfying
but i just dont get it
how can people go about their day without trying
live for what they come home to; absolutely nothing
while they watch a bottle of 24oz turn into absolutely nothing
The flavor goes, after 6 or 7 of those
It turns to water
I feel so good like myself is a proud owner of a monster
Oh wait, thats me
But I cant speak or see
I cant reason or be
Exactly the person I would not like to be
My laughing is straight out of control
Im having fun, but am susceptible for what I dont know
And it shows
Well I suppose someone will stop me
The ones who look out
But think again, and my mind spins while holding these doubts
And maybe now Im not all there
But who these days is?
I can pick out the focused from the broken
As easy as wins, I lose
As easy as friends, I choose
I want YOU out of my life
And I want YOU to fill their shoes
Oh man how am I feeling so straight forward
Maybe a couple more brews in me will make me say more
I play with the able and the attitude to be me
I create a bigger ego just sippin' on 3 deep
Winds blows west to east
But I got plenty on my mind to sit still
What happened to my power, and what happened to my will
So flimsy like I follow so slowlyyy..
Slow motion blurred and blind eyes controlingg..
Enough said I will surely post this edited or not

Knowledge

Any area of expertise holds knowledge
Knowledge gained by time and efforts
I see people who know so much about the world
Discovering the jungle like a leopard
Curiosity does not conserve the longing
Wait for no one, answer the calling
I chose to unveil the mystery
Make me a mockery, but I'll have no misery
Can it be such a timeless agenda?
Again and again
I own up to the avenger
Avenging nothing but your mind's front memory
Bobbling around, fusing in by the years, decades, century
And forever more because the world is constant
It is my turn to grab hold of information and lock it in my pocket
Stop it, but why, its true logic
"Know" instead of "No"
Trust your instinct and let go
Ice is always going to be cold
Soak in the power of other people
And you might have the upper hand instead of being equal
My feet walk the distance
My eyes looking sharp
I feel it with my heart
My brain is whats left to do its part
I say, seeking knowledge is an acquired art

The hole that just gets deeper

And sometimes they just get so deep in it
So far down there is no where to turn
Eventually unknowing in their decisions, they dig even deeper still
The only way to rise above is with help
Once they get stuck so far down, how can any one see goodness
How can any one know their own strength
Weakness to the fullest
Sorrow turns into foolishness
Let yourself be helped
Let the love others have for you penetrate
Don't have doubts
Otherwise life will pass you by
And it will be so dark where you are
You wont see the people who truly care about you cry
Cry and hurt for your cries and hurt
Line of work, they put in time for sure
Take this time to let these lines sink in clear with no blurs
Because that willingness in your heart to attach
Brings about these fake people who selfishly plan attacks
Reassess all things and people
Scary movies, but even more frightening sequels
Only if you let your life continue this way
Let you mind gravitate to who makes your heart feel safe, secure, and save that for keeps day after day
Hear me as I say
Better than this is what you deserve
Graduate from brokenness into living out these words

I Don't Runaway (Intro Idea.....)

On Repeat

Music to my ears

I can't believe how much music there is out there in the world today. I have come across numerous new artists that I can truly say are now in the realm of my favorites which is awesome. In depth and with a clear mind searching for a new sound has brought me many connections I've never had before. Reaching a new place with what I like and it is all thanks to the wonderful people in the world sharing their talents with anyone who will listen. I am continuously searching, improving and working, better than yesterday. Its just that easy. Music to my ears.

Finally Moving (In the Makings)

And it all comes down to this,
Make moves, migrate, and take the hits, yeah


Just like I said
Just like I said


Light years seem to pass
My God,
How have I run so fast
Away from you
Race anew
My body feels pain
Just like you do
How has your heart been lately
My monster can't see straightly
I bend the rules still breaking
My soul sits here for the taking
Blame me
Save me
Crave me
Accomplice replace me
Hazy

Water from these eyes
No surprise
No surprise
No surprise...