Black Eye Vision

When the devil meets my eyes and says, "I'm just playin"
My challenger persona be like, "Well I'm just waitin"
Then I realize that its the fact that I'm even talking back
I whisper in my mind and he says, "Definitely heard that"
I keep nothing to chance
No safety net to lean on
He keeps me in his sights at night
I'm the one he creeps on
I slip onto a silent road
Obvious to feed on
I'm knee deep in my rewards
But somehow drown in my remorse
I'm unofficially at times, throwing in the towel
I let myself at times, allow sorrow to be found
Everythings a blur now, shots all around
Oh wait, I'm here alone, and just finished up 6 rounds
Been a bitter evening
Bite at night chills me
Probably because I walk alone
House to house unruly
Next time I'll be beaten
Bruised heavy guilty
And who am I to think that I am even worthy
Too good, can turn too bad
Wants of what I can never have
I call this my "Black eye vision"
Unsightly path not given
I take it as I figure in
What part of life is missin'
Cuz I'm just in this fishbowl
While much rather would be fishin'