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"Creative Ambitions" - In the Makings

  Creative Ambitions by Golden 1-1

With some potential to go somewhere other than my own friend/acquaintance base, I figured I would try out some music as a hobby that could well be brought about into something bigger if I choose to. I have now scheduled some studio time in Berkeley for November 6th, to further my "Creative Ambitions". Don't know where this road will take me, but I am willing to take every path given to me in life as a rare opportunity that not many people posses. SHARE/DOWNLOAD/LISTEN/TALK ABOUT my music & hopefully you may be able to relate to some if not all the words that come from my heart and soul.


-Michael Lopez

"The Journey" FULL Lyrics + FULL Track to come!

Intro:

"Well ever since I was younger, I had a thing for writing. I don't know what drew me in, to just pick up a pencil and tablet and just write, but it definitely let most of my emotions flow and be free. I wouldn't be trapped in just what I thought, but I actually got to see them be exposed on a piece of paper as if they were really real. You know,  it's all just a Journey from here, and I'm not looking to turn back.



Lift off starts at about 9 am, not too early, not too late, but always in the right mind state. I can't even begin my day without thanking God. Solely go through life, go through troubles of course, everyone has those. And it may not even be that my troubles are that bad; but I've seen bad. In so many people, I've seen hurt and destruction and brokenness beyond belief. So I speak. I speak out in their honor and for their sanity, and also for mine. One day at a time, one step, one breath. Keep moving, never stagnant.

(Verse 1)

Good morning
Another day of soulful recording
I warned em
That I would one day seize the storming
Preforming
Just my way to freeze the mourning
Another outlet
Redirect my ways and stripes
Intellect is found
Amongst the maze of life
Embrace me
Keep me grounded
Guardian angel right?
A called many a times
But here now, just a few
My comfort opens to you
Yeah, stability proof

Yeah
I just keep on comin'
and I, slave
For the good things comin'
And I'm saved
Got the good traits flowin in my 

Veins
Opaque but still focused

Heart still flowin'

Mind still growin'

Eyes still glowin'
Yes I'm still Golden,

Yes Im still Golden

(Chorus)

And how high do you gotta be
To get back down
Oh my, mental talk to me
(x3)

And how high do you gotta be

To get back down

Oh myy, oh myy, oh myy

(Verse 2)

Movin' over, forward
Till Southern Cal
Spit me out
True sobers horrors
I contemplated much
But in a rush, jumped on the first train
Beach town
Yeah, Id call it love
Figured tried the scene
Here dude hit this
I'll grab the brew, be free
I'll vape and smoke the weed
They thought my choice was weak
Upiddty, wholesome
No need to see me
My lonely peaked
6 hours from my retreat
6 months, I came to see
How drugs destroyed their dreams
How oppsed I came to be 

Keep your thoughts and your feelings
I watch myself, solo vision
kay?

I'm going back to my home "The Bay"

Home base

(Chorus)

And how high do you gotta be
To get back down
Oh my, mental talk to me
(x3)

And how high do you gotta be

To get back down

Oh my, oh my, oh myyy

 

(Verse 3)

Long locks, I throw rocks
To all who think I've lost myself

You know not
I'm up spots
I climb higher till lift off
Be pissed off
Unbreakable change was made
Undo-able things the same
My journey has no shame
My journey like yours, is my own to own
Never left alone
I value ones in my life
And to each of you I owe
Forever marked in my soul

"Wonderful Timing" Lyrics

As I open up the gates
Come up from a cloud
Like a lion's roar
I begin my sound


I am my own
I am alone
Blind faith, the throne
Many arrows are thrown
Very seldom I'm known
Merry moments come home
Why have friends I have foes
Find me at Copelands Cove
Where only thoughts are bestowed
Where phony plots I withhold
From jealous thoughts I've been told
Stop the new keep the old
Buy nothing into my soul

Materialistic's be sold
I have proud moments of gold
Still my heart is controlled
And yes this does take a toll
By and by ride or roll
No disguise play the role
Look, my feelings are out of control
Why do I need such a reality check
When I find myself loving less
But loving never the less
My time is tasteful
Prime lies are wasteful
End of day hear me
Out of bounds at Staples
Right or wrong ungrateful
My mistakes are shameful
How do we see things now
How do I breathe deep now
Trying to see dreams out
Finding the key reach now
Ready to free me out
Locked up in myself
Get me out



And I say don't worry
But please can you hurry me on
(x2)




Wait wait
Caught up the moment for ya
Bait bait
Pullin' all my focus towards ya
Fate fate
Grasping on my shoulders to you
Masking my boldness is proof
Where am I now on the roof
Debating, fading, light loops
Creating stories
My memory's in storage
I turned off the light so I can bask in my forest
I last in a forfeit
My past, I can not morph it
Teleport to glory as I land at the pulpit
My fam gives me no less,
And I give up never
Only child syndrome,
I was born for this weather
Roars in my presence
Lords in my message
Crippled on the inside
But outwardly expressive
Kill the coward
Seek direction
Hold the flower
Keep selecting
Full of habits
Full of blessings
Demons
Blind
Misery is mine
Jumbled in my mind
Wonderful timing

And this goes out to nobody specific

Golden: I Don't Runaway (Complete)

LYRICS:

I don't runaway
No
Perfect is the word
It's the main thing that the lost souls want
But not me, I see things, see things
Things that I wish I had not
No worries, it is my destiny to be where I am
I hear the tick go tock on the bomb
waiting

Waiting for another day hey maybe
Maybe
Losin' traction out of safety lately
Movin' fast or slow
Depending on the day its crazy
I am the one
Getting so clear
But when knocked down or beaten
I'm  speared
Maybe cuz I'm weird
I have tendency to fear
When the fear is no where near

And I am well believed to be somebody
Now and here i need somebody
I seek somebody

Soul to soul
Heart to heart
Best friend
Fighting it out
Where the conditions see blizzards and winds
And as I sit I spin
And as a stand a swerve

Loss of all my power
Is almost well deserved
I'm needing comforters
Not just comfort words
Let me seize the burn
I need to learn
To read the curves
Maybe one day I'll free my yearns

I have the right to yell for her
I have the right
It is my right
I have the right
It is my right
Never will my back turn
From you

I don't runaway, I don't runaway, nahhh
I don't runaway, I don't runaway, nahhh

And you can't stop me now, stop me now, stop me now
And you can't stop me now, stop me now, stop me now
And you can't stop me now, stop me now, stop me now

Still can't stop me now, stop me now, stop me now
Still can't stop me now, stop me now, stop me now
Still can't stop me now, stop me now, stop me now

Still can't


I don't runaway, I don't runaway, I don't runaway, I don't runaway
I don't runaway, I don't runaway, I don't runaway

"I Don't Runaway" Lyrics

 Configuring both of these tracks:

Kid Cudi-Perfect is the Word

Alexi Murdoch-12

Golden-"I Don't Runaway" LYRICS:

I don't runaway
No
Perfect is the word
It's the main thing that the lost souls want
But not me, I see things, see things
Things that I wish I had not
No worries, it is my destiny to be where I am
I hear the tick go tock on the bomb
waiting

Waiting for another day hey maybe
Maybe
Losin' traction out of safety lately
Movin' fast or slow
Depending on the day its crazy
I am the one
Getting so clear
But when knocked down or beaten
I'm  speared
Maybe cuz I'm weird
I have tendency to fear
When the fear is no where near

And i am well believed to be somebody
Now and here i need somebody
I seek somebody

Soul to soul
Heart to heart
Best friend
Fighting it out
Where the conditions see blizzards and winds
And as I sit I spin
And as a stand a swerve

Loss of all my power
Is almost well deserved
I'm needing comforters
Not just comfort words
Let me seize the burn
I need to learn
To read the curves
Maybe one day I'll free my yearns

I have the right to yell for her
I have the right
It is my right
I have the right
It is my right
Never will my back turn
From you

I don't runaway, I don't runaway, nahhh
I don't runaway, I don't runaway, nahhh

And you can't stop me now, stop me now, stop me now
And you can't stop me now, stop me now, stop me now,
And you can't stop me now, stop me now, stop me now

Still can't stop me now, stop me now, stop me now
Still can't stop me now, stop me now, stop me now
Still can't stop me now, stop me now, stop me now

Still can't


I don't runaway, I don't runaway, I don't runaway, I don't runaway
I don't runaway, I don't runaway, I don't runaway

Big Bad Monsters (Snippet)

Special thanks to Eli Abadilla for providing an amazing beat. Hopefully I matched your thoughts when originally putting this together. Really looking forward to working with you in the future on making some dope music. You can find more about Eli here-->http://duedillz.wordpress.com/

 Lyrics:

(Voices):
Where's he going
I don't know
Yeah
He doesn't look so good
Uhm...ya, get em', ha ha ha
It's too late
Aw, too easy
Hah
Ahhaah
Game over.
See ya


(Chorus)
Who you are
I know you
For who you are


 (Verse 1)
And I'm under attack
Lights
Strobin' in my brain
Fast life
Seemingly mundane
So nice
Always been deranged
Am I sick or am I lame
Move my feet
Release the pain
And it comes in waves
Hide or duck and cave
My insurance on these hits
Records in saving change
Smile made my day
Lines of strength and brave
Picked me up when I fell
No signs of losin' faith
I see sky
I grab my cape
Pack light
Ready? on my way
Someones comin' for you now
I need my mind exchanged
Lone soldier in a town
I need a hideaway
Read between the lines
You'll read a rivalry
Good heart battles self
Intention, mockery
Softer please
I'm beyond broken
Left behind, heart not chosen
But at the end of the day
Still holding

Rediscovery of Importance.

Everything I once held dear to me at one time or another needs to be where I am now. Everything and everyone that had some type of meaning needs to surface and suffocate me with their presence. To make this possible it will be a long but very sufficient path of dedication that only I can achieve and push towards. Something in me tells me those things that I truly love need to know about it and believe it & by involving those things in my life in a constant circle I will then return the same energy upon them as they do to me, giving me strength, confidence, and a redefined alliance with nothing more than pure assurance itself. It all starts. Making moves with true grit and raw qualities that I have been raised up in. Atmospheric tendencies feel me shooting for Mars with all my pieces in play. Now for the gathering of what I have seemed to misplace.

I am coming. For all of it.


-James Michael Constancio-Lopez

Don't call it a Comeback

Cowardice crusade
Build up a tolerance and watch it fade
When the best nights get seemingly dim
My plans creep deep through your skin
My adaptation of what this means
Means everything that you have dreamed
So little are they who will soon fail you
The biggest mistake is that you let you
Mistakes turn into wonderful realizations
Upon countless horrible nights alone;
Your fear
Fictitious patience
Master the sanity
Keep close the comfort
I am awry and loftily hungered
Never get a night of rest
With your best interest, I make the bets
I seek the top
For all I've got
But nothing is it without you
Time will tell the outcome
I know not hope I'm not done
Comeback mission
In my forefront

Tracklist: In the Makings, looking like an LP...

-The Journey
-Break Me
-22
-Introspective
-No Church in the Wild
-I Don't Runaway
-Hope to Survive
-Welcome to Heartbreak Cover
-Marvins Room Cover

No Church in the Wild- Cover- (SNIPPET)

Human beings in a mob
Whats a mob to a king
Whats a king to a God
Whats a God to a non-believer
Who don't believe in
Anything

He'll make it out alive
Alright alright
No Church in the Wild



Fears fake the monumental roar
No shame in poundin' on the door
Fire hearted amidst of defeat
Gift giving, opinion aint' cheap
Stolen in the forefront of dreams
Caught up in losses, turn around to a beast
Propane breathe
Pure white bright, I haven't seen you in weeks
Low ceiling beat
I wonder if they ever found my release
Its quiet quiet, my world still riots
Stay back tactic be around no sleep
Off cadence
Meek
I'm out here calling, with no one to seek
Its a coffin now, get over the last reach
Hold up its in holdin' now, gimmie a lasting obsolete
Preach


Human beings in a mob
Whats a mob to a king
Whats a king to a God
Whats a God to a non-believer
Who don't believe in
Anything


He'll make it out alive
Alright alright
No Church in the Wild

The New 1

And in the beginning problems will be few
But later on later on
Hope its still true
Nowhere steppin
Nowhere gone
I'll be home when it gets darker
If it ever gets dark for you at all

Night Terror Sleeps

And when the rainstorms win
When the cold dreams kick
When the night lights dim
I stare,
When the countless fails
Redirect my trails
When the overture ends
It's real,
My body folds
My mind is told
That I will be insane,
Just for the hour
Till springtime turns the flower
Till summer falls to sane,
I am what I am
And I am who I ought to be,
I am who I am
And you leave just as planned
But your heart
Drags behind your feet,
How can I still be so weak
This hour turns to weeks & weeks
Good morning.
Night terror sleeps.
Please,
Let this day bring peace.

"The Journey" Intro w/Lyrcis

Well ever since I was younger, I had a thing for writing. I don't know what drew me in, to just pick up a pencil and tablet and just write, but it definitely let most of my emotions flow and be free. I wouldnt be trapped in just what I thought but I actually got to see them be exposed on a piece of paper as if they were really real. You know,  it's all just a Journey from here, and I'm not looking to turn back.



Lift off starts at about 9 am, not too early, not too late, but always in the right mind state. I can't even begin my day without thanking God. Solely go through life, go through troubles of course, everyone has those. And it may not even be that my troubles are that bad; but I've seen bad. In so many people, I've seen hurt and destruction and brokenness beyond belief. So I speak. I speak out in their honor and for their sanity, and also for mine. One day at a time, one step, one breath. Keep moving, never stagnant.

"Water From These Eyes"

LYRICS:

And it all comes down to this,
Make moves, migrate, and take the hits, yeah
(X2)


Just like I said
Just like I said
(ILL)
Golden


Light years seem to pass
My God,
How have I run so fast
Away from you
Race anew
My body feels pain
Just like you do
How has your heart been lately
My monster can't see straightly
I bend the rules still breaking
My soul sits here for the taking
Blame me
Save me
Crave me
Accomplice replace me
Hazy

Water from these eyes
No surprise
No surprise
No surprise...


I can't let people down
Wake up and smell
What reeks of reality
A night brought on by irrational insanity
Too much good is never good enough
First glance I pass, but second looks tough
I get it down to what the core of me,
Sees
Breathes
Isolated punchline
Knees
Weak
Deactivated heart line
Acid makes a sci-fy
Oh yeah that's mine
Alter Ego,
I know what to do
Chill at the spot
We watch
Blue Moons
Progression
Now who's who
Forgive me
I chose you


Water from these eyes
No surprise
No surprise
No surprise...


When the devil meets my eyes and says, "I'm just playin"
My challenger persona be like, "I'm just waitin"
Then I realize, that its the fact, that I'm even talking back
I whisper in my mind and he hears that
Leave nothing to chance
No safety net to lean on
Keeps me in his sights at night
I'm the one he creeps on
Slip onto a silent road
Obvious to feed on
Stow away where darkness reins
Centuries and eons
Pretty colors get me bad
Especially the neon
Make me happy
Make it last
Potentially a lead on
Quit playin' Golden
My minds just racin'
All I ask for is God
Not Satan

All I ask for is God
Not Satan

All I ask for is God
Not Satan


Water from these eyes
No surprise
No surprise
No surprise...

Newness

Another new track "Water From These Eyes" coming soon. Stay tuned squad. -Snippet of the intro here.


http://go1den.blogspot.com/2011/06/finally-moving-in-makings.html

I Can't Let People Down

I can't let people down
Wake up and smell what reeks of reality
From a night brought on by irrational insanity
Too much good is never good enough
First glance I pass, but second looks tough
Get it all down to what the core of me,
Sees
Breathes
Isolated punchline
Knees
Weak
Deactivated heart line
Acid placed with sci-fys
Prescription
Oh yes that's mine
Alter Ego,
He knows what to do
Come chill at the spot
We watch
Blue Moons
Progression.
Now who's who
Unrest
With no rules
Figure I'll be here quite awhile
With the locks grown out
And my staggered smile
Sweet tooth beats me up inside
Because its only black licorice now
For this joyous ride
Ironically enough
This is my journey of sweet revenge
Gone after the kid, who's lost his marbles again
Gone like the wind
With no pun intended to sin
But hey, Genesis readers, its how it all begins
Go 'head, make all the wrong friends
Reverse the right decisions
Be fearless
But where am I at to hear this
Cares are an act of realness
Which bares stability and nearness
With a part of yourself
So far gone
A defiant giant
A reckless wrong
I hate senseless calls
Followed by uncontrollable bawls
My night cant get more emotions involved
But look here,
I play for keeps
Locked out of this heart for weeks
I mean years
I even got a restraining order
To keep my love in order
How filthy is that
When pure love gets attacked like that
Now, Jack says
Tilt your head back
Leave not a drop
I rather be hurtin' then dead

WWS MAGAZINE- FEATURED ARTIST (INDIE FOCUS)

Its been nothing but thoughts of mine to start diving into anything involving the music business, but this may be something that is supposed to be well planted in my life. Got an oppurtunity to be featured on WWS MAGAZINE and I appreciate the support from them to give me a spot. Now if you already know about it, go listen to it again, then check out the "older pages" on my blog for more music. Thanks to everyone who has come here to view my work and view a peice of who I am.

Letting what ever happen, happen. Couldn't be more blessed.


-Golden


HERE.WE.GO.

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Dega Dash

No Way Out (Snippet)

And I'll start hatin' only if you make me

Reality always wins

Where are you going
Off somewhere out there
I saw you here once
I saw you run more than that though
Enraged or emotional
It was a tragedy to see
As you made your way through the trees
Your surroundings were not kind to you
Tripping, falling, but pushing through
You pushed yourself right back to me
On accident two times or three
May we vision peace at least
Caught you millions, I watched you weak
Stumbled right upon my outstretched arm
And with a way of words and a comfort I meant no harm
And with a way of words and distance I seemed to leave your heart
Always to stay there, but fully not there
I had too much invested
I had my thoughts unrested
Justification to no ones liking
My medal of honor has left me alone
My haste and longing had wrecked a soul
Oh and mine,
Its doing alright
Soul to soul
We match just fine
But toe to toe and eye to eye
There was always something just not right
So you said..
100% and our Team has no end
So I said.
And I struggled to find every piece that was missing
I was constantly hoping and fearlessly wishing
But never can a man take away a heart from another
I will wait
I will wait for the time in which she gives her heart clean
With no second strings
And with no backing piece
And according to plan, this one will then be free
This one will erase all the pain that Ive seen
This her, whosoever it will be, will see me
So clearly
It all carries heavy like boulders
My position is out
My role is over
As we should chose anything further
100% forever's are in order
Otherwise falling back into burners
Furnace waiting to consume
My life, full of everything, but you
Your life will be enriched
Your sights will see no ditch
But one day, as I say, you will awaken from the in between
And seek stable, reach to me
Finally with conquered heights
You fill the promise that you made to me
Whoever that may be
Someday this kid will see
Her Self means worlds to me
Killing me
With every hour
Burrowing
My only flower
Come out and see the sunshine
Let it take you somewhere in future times
And when the fast lane dead ends and runs out of road
When the high that you had brings you down below
The greatest truth to lies
Is reality crashing in
Reality always wins

Recognize

Music takes time
Time that I must set aside
For this to be my focus
My doubts will run and hide
I will be on the rise
Recognize

DAMN RIGHT

On another planet

And I'm gonna keep living till my lights get black
Hard nose with it, like my sight sees that
Rare air, fixed vision, only on my next steps
Main stage from my cave, leaving all, leaving back
Press on to the crossroads where I hit a choice
Full flavor, I'm now enabled
I have discovered I have a voice
Write a book, maybe two
Sing a song, through and through
Im no model, its just a fluke
I have been exploring all my options
And I never seem to run out of room
Planted are my feet
But my aim is at the moon

Golden: Photos (Part V)

Rest assured & sleep with peace
Focus, notice, what your life needs

Golden: Photos (Part IV)

 

MICHAEL COPLEY PHOTOGRAPHY

Bummer

But see I know you'll be back

Reality always wins

And I'm just crazy
Goin insanely
Ruckus come tame me
Uncontrollable shame
Meets intolerable aims
Of missing and wishing
But never you came
You never came

Black Eye Vision

When the devil meets my eyes and says, "I'm just playin"
My challenger persona be like, "Well I'm just waitin"
Then I realize that its the fact that I'm even talking back
I whisper in my mind and he says, "Definitely heard that"
I keep nothing to chance
No safety net to lean on
He keeps me in his sights at night
I'm the one he creeps on
I slip onto a silent road
Obvious to feed on
I'm knee deep in my rewards
But somehow drown in my remorse
I'm unofficially at times, throwing in the towel
I let myself at times, allow sorrow to be found
Everythings a blur now, shots all around
Oh wait, I'm here alone, and just finished up 6 rounds
Been a bitter evening
Bite at night chills me
Probably because I walk alone
House to house unruly
Next time I'll be beaten
Bruised heavy guilty
And who am I to think that I am even worthy
Too good, can turn too bad
Wants of what I can never have
I call this my "Black eye vision"
Unsightly path not given
I take it as I figure in
What part of life is missin'
Cuz I'm just in this fishbowl
While much rather would be fishin'

ANOTHER Unreleased Kid Cudi 2011

Unreleased Kid Cudi 2011

When the fast lane dead ends and runs out of road,
When the high that you had brings you down below.

My Anthem

Found these on my Myspace..lol

Sep 22, 2007

Indescribable

Current mood:grateful

Indescribable. You never know whats next. Life is full of opportunities taken and opportunities missed. Chances blown, and thoughts turning into actions. Live your life in truth, live your life in honor, live your life in confidence. Dont let the people in your life who truly care about you, slip away. But set aside the unnecessary hollow people who block your vision of staying true. Decide on the way you want to live and live it. Keep your enemies few. Keep your support great. And keep your loved ones as close to you as possible & hold on to them for however long you can. Without communication you lose. Game over. If a person hears and understands what you are saying, everything is so much easier to deal with. Remember, to smile often. Dont "not be" yourself because it shows. When you say "I Love You", mean it. Dont let your head get too big, but dont let it get too small. There is a balance to confidence. Find it. You may never be the smartest, fastest, biggest, tallest, best looking, most conditioned, person. But rise above your difficulties. Meet your goals and expectations you set for yourself. And never say never. Go for the gold. Go big or go home. Show up and shape up. Cuz the time is now. Be ready for what ever comes your way. Face all adversity with 100% of your heart. And know that everyday is another opportunity to make a difference or to do something great.

-Michael Lopez-





Jan 18, 2008

Thank You.

Current mood:thankful

When I take a step back and look at my life and who is in it, I am so grateful and thankful. It takes real love and compassion for the people around you, and real bonds and connections, to make you realize how much those people mean to you. I've been blessed to be surrounded with awesome friends, and of course my family. Even though most of my family that I am close with, I cannot see everyday, I am reminded each time I go to visit what the love of an aunt, cousin, or grandpa means to me. I usually take for granted the small things that the people in my life do for me, and I know I shouldn't. Because everyday that I get a smile, compliment, encouragement, or embrace, it helps me get through day to day. Knowing the love of people and how they express it to you can often be complicated, but I know that I have surrounded myself with such a great base of people to share that with. I have no time for holding grudges anymore; I'm getting too old for that. Life is too short to cut people out, or dislike people unless you have a good reason. Once again I am thankful and appreciative for the people in my life today. Family, friends, and everyone else who knows me; thank you for being yourself around me, and for knowing and hopefully appreciating who I am as a person, and what I have to offer.

If you just read this, that was for you.

 

No Looking Down

Its where I'm never found, I'm never found
Is where I'm headed now, I'm headed down
Its where I'm never found, I'm never found
Is where I'm headed now, I'm headed down


I look up and see my whole life story
Woke up to breathe, good day starts for me
Hold up, I'm weak, absence of glory
Mighty to seek though, quietly reach out
Too modest to be found
Reliance, it peaks now, seeps down
There's a hold on my position to win
Hurricane plays on my decision to spin
Broken glass sees that I'm evicted again
Specifically dim
With wild flames burning in


Its where I'm never found, I'm never found
Is where I'm heading now, I'm heading down
Its where I'm never found, I'm never found
Is where I'm heading now, I'm heading down


Quarter to 2, my day starts slowly
Out of this bed means more misery
Quota today; give out smiles and waves
And take what I can, let whats good come my way
How they will know nothing about my situation
I hide it so well, my own complications
Virus is felt though
How can I withhold
My body gets so cold
Struggles, those struggles


Its where I'm never found, I'm never found
My soul keeps reaching out, its reaching out
Its where I'm never found, I'm never found
But my soul, it reaches out, it needs an out


Week and a day since times got harder
Malice and rage, my own self starter
My friends come in waves
Opportunity saves
How can you be happy when subsequently dazed
I wait so long for you my friends
I have no one, and I have few cents
My days are long
My will is gone
Somehow my let down has the fight to be strong


Its where I'm never found, I'm never found
My heart needs something now, just something now
Its where I'm never found, I'm never found
My heart hears something sound, that something sounds


Listen to it once, hear it through me twice
One day I wake up and take all my advice
I redirect my life
I stand there satisfied
Because of my reality, greatness comes through tragedy
My aches heal so erratically
I come to realize as all will
That amounts of life's retries are standing still
What matters is; let matters spill
Let thoughts breathe, let your mind speak
Let lost things, find peace
Let wrong days, right your weeks
Be conqueror of all you are
See honest people, shoot for the stars
Spend the quality of time and love
Set quality in your life when times are rough
Camp-out wherever certainty reigns
Climb all your mountains, ride all the waves
Smile from your soul, bring that confidence that shows
Make your mind free of worry, there you are, there's your glow
Fortified lifetime of truth
When will the encouragement end
No where in my book


My journey is ending now, its ending now
Yes I'm finally found, I'm finally found
My trials will be here then, they'll be here now
But hey, I'm looking up, no looking down
No looking down...





"Thank you to all the people that are/were struggling and have had the courage to let me in. These are all truly your words you have said to me redirected in this piece. For all of you that can relate to this in any way, I may not have been anywhere near your defeats but I made this piece as vivid as I could from all the information I have gathered from others experiences along with some of my own. I have seen too many people in my life who have it so hard, that's why I am always catering to going to the next level with my writings. From some type of destruction to encouragement, there is always someone who needs motivation. Even from low points in life I can see full recovery in a person willing to change and break free. For all who are in that place, this one is for you. Thanks again."

CUD LIFE TOUR SF

I guess if I was simple in the mind, everything would fine. Maybe if I was a jerk to girls, instead of being nice and speaking kind words, then maybe it would be okay to say then, I wasn't a good guy to begin with.

They got me thinking I aint human, like I came here from above. Feelin' like a bird sittin' high.

-Kid Cudi

Florence Snippet

Good luck my best friend. I wish you all the best. Nothing less.

Happy 21st Birthday to Me!

Sunk like a ship after awhile
Nothing less than a good time
Loose ends, great friends, and by the end of the night feeling finee
6/14/2011

Zoned Liquid

And not to say that this feeling isnt satisfying
but i just dont get it
how can people go about their day without trying
live for what they come home to; absolutely nothing
while they watch a bottle of 24oz turn into absolutely nothing
The flavor goes, after 6 or 7 of those
It turns to water
I feel so good like myself is a proud owner of a monster
Oh wait, thats me
But I cant speak or see
I cant reason or be
Exactly the person I would not like to be
My laughing is straight out of control
Im having fun, but am susceptible for what I dont know
And it shows
Well I suppose someone will stop me
The ones who look out
But think again, and my mind spins while holding these doubts
And maybe now Im not all there
But who these days is?
I can pick out the focused from the broken
As easy as wins, I lose
As easy as friends, I choose
I want YOU out of my life
And I want YOU to fill their shoes
Oh man how am I feeling so straight forward
Maybe a couple more brews in me will make me say more
I play with the able and the attitude to be me
I create a bigger ego just sippin' on 3 deep
Winds blows west to east
But I got plenty on my mind to sit still
What happened to my power, and what happened to my will
So flimsy like I follow so slowlyyy..
Slow motion blurred and blind eyes controlingg..
Enough said I will surely post this edited or not

Knowledge

Any area of expertise holds knowledge
Knowledge gained by time and efforts
I see people who know so much about the world
Discovering the jungle like a leopard
Curiosity does not conserve the longing
Wait for no one, answer the calling
I chose to unveil the mystery
Make me a mockery, but I'll have no misery
Can it be such a timeless agenda?
Again and again
I own up to the avenger
Avenging nothing but your mind's front memory
Bobbling around, fusing in by the years, decades, century
And forever more because the world is constant
It is my turn to grab hold of information and lock it in my pocket
Stop it, but why, its true logic
"Know" instead of "No"
Trust your instinct and let go
Ice is always going to be cold
Soak in the power of other people
And you might have the upper hand instead of being equal
My feet walk the distance
My eyes looking sharp
I feel it with my heart
My brain is whats left to do its part
I say, seeking knowledge is an acquired art

The hole that just gets deeper

And sometimes they just get so deep in it
So far down there is no where to turn
Eventually unknowing in their decisions, they dig even deeper still
The only way to rise above is with help
Once they get stuck so far down, how can any one see goodness
How can any one know their own strength
Weakness to the fullest
Sorrow turns into foolishness
Let yourself be helped
Let the love others have for you penetrate
Don't have doubts
Otherwise life will pass you by
And it will be so dark where you are
You wont see the people who truly care about you cry
Cry and hurt for your cries and hurt
Line of work, they put in time for sure
Take this time to let these lines sink in clear with no blurs
Because that willingness in your heart to attach
Brings about these fake people who selfishly plan attacks
Reassess all things and people
Scary movies, but even more frightening sequels
Only if you let your life continue this way
Let you mind gravitate to who makes your heart feel safe, secure, and save that for keeps day after day
Hear me as I say
Better than this is what you deserve
Graduate from brokenness into living out these words

I Don't Runaway (Intro Idea.....)

On Repeat

Music to my ears

I can't believe how much music there is out there in the world today. I have come across numerous new artists that I can truly say are now in the realm of my favorites which is awesome. In depth and with a clear mind searching for a new sound has brought me many connections I've never had before. Reaching a new place with what I like and it is all thanks to the wonderful people in the world sharing their talents with anyone who will listen. I am continuously searching, improving and working, better than yesterday. Its just that easy. Music to my ears.

Finally Moving (In the Makings)

And it all comes down to this,
Make moves, migrate, and take the hits, yeah


Just like I said
Just like I said


Light years seem to pass
My God,
How have I run so fast
Away from you
Race anew
My body feels pain
Just like you do
How has your heart been lately
My monster can't see straightly
I bend the rules still breaking
My soul sits here for the taking
Blame me
Save me
Crave me
Accomplice replace me
Hazy

Water from these eyes
No surprise
No surprise
No surprise...

Curtains revealing because they're see-through
My gut instinct is what I feel true
Hovercraft holds me above the rest
Complacent adolescent seems depressed
Night terror and beyond
Grabbed by the goblin
Hooked by wrong
Left his might at home on the counter
Said I'll be back, just taking it slow before I get too sour
Too much louder
Too less prouder
Benevolent army
Beer bargain shower
I hate this place of no return
My aches and pains threshold to burns
Whines and cries can't help me now
My strength, come save me
Throw me in the clouds
I'll stay there until the dust settles
Maybe next winter will bring
More than hot tea kettles
From flowers to flames
Unbreakable aims
Heart wrenching weeks
Followed by emotional days
I played the play
I made the calls
I allowed it all
My fault is cause
Now all is lost
Turn it around trooper
Because your mind done gone
Journey a new future
Right all your wrongs
Start with the bottom
End up on top
Sit there with contentment
And true love in your thoughts

Hitting Home

"Seems like everywhere you turn catastrophe it reigns /
 But who really profits from the dying"

People Say

My mother told me "You can do no wrong boy"

My father told me "Your best falls short boy"

The unknowing told me "Your spoiled rotten. See me, I'm never given anything, while you get off easy with no problems"

My true friends told me, "Your true to the soul, I'll be here for the long road, always ready to roll"

My bosses told me, "I see you at the top, one day soon, you boy, will be taking my spot"

The masses told me "You must adapt, be a part of this society, never become an outcast"

My grandparents told me "Long term plans is the key, honor yourself with the right confidence, and be able to provide for your family"

God told me "I am the way, the truth, and the light; you are a sheep and I am the Shepard, come forth from darkness to light"

I tell myself "I am who I am. Undefined, but pouring out with wealth. Riches only in life's blessings and people's presence. I walk to my destiny with full leverage, but I am weak when I'm restless. I'll fall down in a second, if my heart misses the mark. I wont die out on a soul, I'll be there till finish from start. I am a friend worth millions, I am long lasting, and fuel furious. I am full speed ahead with boundless endurance. And with a Heart of a Lion, you'll hear my roar is unheard of. I'm the type of being that sticks to your core as if it was on purpose. Realness. Caring. Patience. But never, no, never close to Perfect"

All I Need

Pain Less Happy More

Its like I speak to you without opening my mouth. I get lost in my thoughts and no words come out. But this is my communication. From all my black and white simplicities to color filled abstract exclamations. I create a picture perfect mural. Stretches wide and far. I smile inside and it warms my soul. Close my eyes, to always find a shooting star. Unnatural is this. Taking over and owns control, but fits. Fits so well, only you and I could tell. I pass the time so our time can be felt. So my heart can melt. So my eyes can water at the sight of you; joy taking my breath, I take hold of you. Writing is my therapy. Much better than the angry me. I get out all my emotions. Until you come around. Tap me on the shoulder. Whisper to me all those certainties I've been longing for. Being strong here for. Pain less, happy more. Hour, day, week, even in year three or four, I'll still see forever more. I know it so well like I've seen it before. With a different outcome, a rearrangement of scores. I captured all of what I set out to accomplish. At this present time, I left my mark, and have seen you realize my logic. Refresh mode. Newly kept clothes. Orderly conduct no more, yes, habits I left those. I am like a person now no one knows. Most importantly I can not be found, like an accordance of camo. I am certainly never out of this ammo. To write. To express feelings. To love. To fight. For you. This is true. My call remains through and through. Lucky enough will I be when my empty space is filled by you.

Space like an Astronaut

I am good
Space like an astronaut
Cant say I complain
Figured out what I'm about
Makes all others look lame
Next chapter in your life
Looking like it has my name
Until then I'll be staying in my lane
Golden great
I take your cake
Two times
Never say goodbye

Fishbowl to Ocean One Day

Torn apart
All my futuristic ways take pause
I hold on to an almost lost cause
I ride with a ghost; no one
Solo mission still getting it done
Prime vision for this one
I read ahead and see the ending
So yes i want it now
Speed time up
Instead of slowing it down
Instead of roamin' around
Instead of going through town
With no app to the map
I point, and say this is home now
Pack up nothing
Because starting fresh is the key
Optimize all feelings
When you remember of me
That's why I'm just time checkin'
And yes we on time
Just wish the pace would pick-up
Before i go out of my mind

And hey
Clean up your room
For the fiftythousiendth time
:)

Real Life Dreams

I be going through it
But they be teachers to this student
A second look at life, and they feel like they ruined
I'm just trippin' in my head though
Crazy thoughts, I got it bad
But who else can tell you; dont
Cuz they do; the most
I'll look so close
And see what they see
And keep my head high
Survivin' Definitely
But most impressively
I got an enemy
So much smaller than I ever thought they'd be
Congrats to me
Number one team
Make my way out
Yes
Breaking the seams
Real life dreams